Yesterday sitting in Church my pastor, Aaron Brockett, talked about doing Whole 30. He was talking about how white knuckling things almost never works. We can’t rely on our willpower to just force ourselves to do something because we just end up resenting whatever we are trying to do or falling back into old habits. He used the reference of going to dinner with his wife and searching the menu for something he could eat. They finally found something and low and behold it came with a beautiful, delicious bread stick. From my years of dieting I could picture it. A steaming hot bowl of soup – that while delicious and filling – suddenly has no appeal compared to the warm, soft bread stick that is dripping with garlic butter.
Just writing those words makes me want a bread stick and honestly thinking about bread sticks make me want fake cheese sauce and pizza with the works, but I digress.
It was at that moment that Aaron’s wife said something that I have not been able to get out of my mind. She said, “It isn’t about getting through Whole 30 so that we can go back to the way things were before – it is about changing our tastes so that we no longer desire the things we had before”. Now I know that I took the whole thing much more literally than Aaron was trying to convey. The sermon was about sin and our lives and the Sermon on the Mount, but it related to me 100% when it comes to food.
I first remember thinking about size and food when I was in sixth grade, and I have been on every diet under the sun since then. I have lost weight, and gained it back. I have been diligent for weeks, months even only to eventually go right back to where I started. My mindset has always been “When I finish this program – then I can have that….”, “When I get down to … weight I can eat ‘bad’ food again sometimes”, “Anything I can do to lose the weight and then I can do what I want”.
It has never worked. Ever.
My mindset has never been that I was trying to change the way food tasted or the things I craved. It has always been that I could have those things I craved after I was done with whatever diet I was on or whenever my cheat day was. I have been white knuckling my way through being healthy and it really has just caused me to gain more weight than I probably would have if I had just eaten like everyone around me.
All that being said, I am going to use this blog to talk to you about my life leveled up.Part of that leveled up life will be a journey of changing the way I relate to food. I am going to change the way I eat. I have heard of success in changing food cravings using Whole 30, so I am going to use that “program”. However, I am not looking to stop Whole 30 in 30 days. I guess I’d call it Whole Lifetime?